You are such a little adventurer!
When I was pregnant with you I prayed that you would be full of life, happy,
and healthy. I would hold my hands on my wiggling belly; you were active even
in the womb, and pray for you every day. You are an answer to those prayers in
every single way. I remember when you were first born how perfect your warm
creamy skin was, how you barely even cried – you just opened your little tiny
eyes and all I would say is “I love you so much.” I’ve never been so overcome
with such strong, overpowering love before. I couldn’t put you down for months
– I would wrap you in my arms and kiss your peach fuzz head, tiny nose, and
pink cheeks. I will never forget that brand new small you had – I could just
breathe you in all day. And some day that is all I did. Even now as you are
toddling around and exploring my
arms ache to hold and cuddle you.
You are so bright and full of life.
I love how your eyes twinkle when something excites you or when you are proud
of yourself. I’ll never forget that twinkle when you took your first steps. You
knew you were on the brink of something big and exciting. You looked at me and
smiled – you looked so proud and a little shocked that you just walked down the
hall by yourself.
You
love the outdoors – I think it’s my Colorado blood running through your veins.
You love to pull the grass up and mash it between your fingers, to look at the
birds and clouds as they pass by, and crunch the fallen leaves between your
pudgy little hands. You cry when we have to go back inside – I think you are a
child of nature. It’s a good thing there is a while world out there for you to
explore. You’ve already been to Colorado and you loved hiking, touching the
cold water by the waterfall, grabbing the river rocks, and making moose calls.
We took you hiking and your Dad carried you on his back and you screeched with
happiness the entire time. You are 100% a nature boy and I love that about you.
You, my son, are fearless; nothing
daunts you. When we went to the ocean you crawled right into the waves and when
they lopped over you, you didn’t cry, you just looked a little stunned but that
little twinkle was in your eyes. I love that about you and at the same time
that strikes fear into my mothers heart. You look life full in the face and take
on everything that comes your way with such a fearless attitude.
I can already see your strong will
coming out in your personality. My parents and your dad say I deserve your
little strong willed nature. Apparently, I have quite the strong will myself.
We are in for quite the ride, you and I. But I know, beyond any shadow of a
doubt, that I, by no means deserve you. I imagined what you would be like when
you were still in my tummy and you are everything I could have dreamed of and
oh so much more. You are the absolute best part of my life – you have changed
me – you made me a mother. You excite me, amaze me, teach me, push me, and wear
me clean out by the end of the day. I adore you my little boy. I don’t deserve
you but I’m so very thankful that God gave me you to look after and love beyond
all reason.
A year ago today a tiny 7 pound 6
ounce 19 inch long baby boy was placed in my arms and I whispered “I love you
so much” and that overwhelming love is as true today as it was when I first saw
you. I love you with everything I have, with my whole heart. Happy Birthday
Jackson!
